Yeah. Who feels grumpy?

I know editing isn't going to be easy, but now it's officially killing me. I don't know what to write, and what changes I should make. It's almost as though I'm afraid of changing it.

Yeah. I'm actually afraid of a Microsoft Office Word Document.

Still, I edit. Still editing. Nowhere near done. The manuscript is never going to be perfect, and I don't mean for it to be either. Ugh. I feel as though the entire freaking concept is childish and the characters are underdeveloped. It's like I'm not doing enough. Not enough plot development, or character personality, or that historical feel that I've very obviously failed to achieve.

Note to self: Things that sound good in your head don't necessarily mean they're actually good.

So what do I do? I don't delete, I don't add, and I don't criticize. I reread the whole thing. I'm not happy with it, but I don't hate it, either.

Wow. I'm actually having a love/hate relationship with a Microsoft Office Word Document.

And then there's real life. As in "No sylphs + Exams = Real life." It interrupts me, and affects my mood. When I'm not in a good mood I can't write.

So, basically, I'm just trying to say that I'm grumpy.